Wearing my high heels again

It's Easter Sunday.... and I went to church wearing a high-heeled shoe (4-inch heels to be exact!) --- again.

I stopped wearing high heels for about 2 years.... First, because I didn't have enough money to replace the old one that got worn out. Second, when I had enough savings, I just didn't think it was worth spending on a pair of my favorite high heels. There were more important things to buy....I got so comfortable wearing my flat sandals and slippers all these years anyway. Third, I'm on a simple living and I didn't see any use for them. I'm on a homebased job and I didn't see myself meeting any important person or attending any important occasion, event, meetings or anything of that sort that would require wearing a beautiful high-heeled shoes. In other words, I was on a voluntary self-exile.

So what's so significant about wearing high heels again? 

As I wore my high-heels this morning, I realized why I've always loved something like them in the past....

• At 5'1" in height, I am not vertically gifted. Wearing high heels made me feel a lot taller, more confident and, yes, more beautiful (I don't know why, but somehow the confidence gets way up to the head...). I thought this must be how beauty queens feel.
• People can't help but stare at the shoes; so they can't help looking at me too. Though I'm not sure if they like the shoes better than the face, but I kinda like the attention I get each time. I'm not physically gifted either (sad face) so it doesn't take much of a guessing why I appreciate the attention from time to time --- even if's just because of the shoes!
• It makes you feel rich. Uh-well, not THAT rich of course. I guess it just means you can "afford". You see, there are more materials used to make high-heeled shoes, so that goes without saying that price probably gets higher for every added inch. 

Wearing my high heels again made me realize how shoes can symbolize different emotions and how it can be associated to the way a person wants to be treated ("begs" to be treated). I stopped wearing one 2 years ago and got so comfortable with simple sandals and slippers because I no longer felt important. I didn't want the attention anymore, I lost the confidence, I couldn't care less how I looked and, truth be said, I could really no longer "afford".

I earn just enough these days. There are other important things to prioritize but I, somehow, want my dignity and confidence back so I got myself a new pair of high-heeled shoes. It's Easter. Jesus triumphed over the enemies. And He died FOR ME. Enough of the self-pity and self-exile drama. It's not the stares and the attention that matters now. The high heels literally make me feel "higher" --- more confident and more hopeful. When you're "higher", you see things that you didn't see before; you see things in different perspective. I still love the flat sandals and slippers though. I realized I could do more things when my feet's much nearer the ground -- I can run and walk faster, I can jump higher and I can reach my destination without much trouble. I'd still wear them for the most part. As for the high heels, I will reserve them for special occasions; because I now believe that there will be many of them in the coming days. I will reserve them when I have to meet with special and important people; for I now know there will be more of them....

Happy Easter everyone! It's Independence Day! Happy high-heels day for me!.....